hi.

so it's been 2 days since i've been back.

yup, i'm planning on updating this thing a little more until i get settled completely.

things that made me super happy:
-mom came to the airport with balloons and a pink rose
-grandparents had a whole bunch of my favorite food prepared for me right when i came over

just look at that mound of kongnamul.

-saw some of my sd friends (+ fob) at night in LA in such a long timeee

and then....
thing that made me angry:
mom knew i was waiting to get a car for forever, knew i wanted it right when i got back, test drove the prius with me before i left for korea.... told me to research for good deals and call her whenever i find some (literally a week before i came back), told me my uncle would put his name on the contract since he has really good credit.... blah blah blah.

right when i was on the phone talking to a friend about how i was gonna get a car the next day, she whispered to me in korean, "samchon says he has to sell his old camry first. it's probably gonna take a few months."

.... wuhhh....ttt?
I KNEW IT. KNEW IT WASN'T GONNA HAPPEN.
it's really the story of my life. mom promises something exciting -- 94% never happens at the time it's supposed to. she knows it, which is why she didn't get mad at me when my smiles and laughter turned into the 똥십은 face. and not just for that moment, too. i mean... why couldn't she tell me this when i was calling her nonstop from korea about all this???

hanging out with friends made me forget, but later when it hit me, i was just NOT in any kind of positive mood -- you know those feelings you have where you KNOW you're just being stupid and stubborn but you can't help it?

i guess being sooooo set on the prius -- especially believing that i was gonna get it the day after i come back -- got to me and i seemed like a stubborn, spoiled little child.

did i REALLY need my uncle in order to get a car?
my mom and i felt a little doubtful. mom's credit isn't that great. i didn't know if i had good credit or not (i don't have a credit card, but a year ago, mom put something under my name, paid for it late, ruined my credit, which i didn't know i even had, and blah blah you get the story).
whatever. i really wanted my freaking prius.
i looked up dealers on google and came across a dealership in marina del rey, who affirmed on their website that they work with every type of credit. called and went in after a few hours at 7:30 pm.

"umma, i feel like we're just gonna go back home empty-handed."

long story short, i prayed to God to forgive me for acting so childish and difficult and asked Him to open myself up to other options. in the end, after test driving 3 different camry's, i gave in and agreed that camry was a pretty good car, too.

so, with the college grad program, hookups, etc. i got myself my first car. under my name. with my mom co-signed. it's kinda way over my budget, but i know God will provide, knowing how much he's shown  my family such unfailing grace and mercy our whole lives, and of course to me the past 8 months in korea. seriously, my 5 hours at the dealership was a miracle. all glory to God.

it isn't new -- it's a 2009 black camry with minor scratches -- but i'm getting a touch-up paint job on wednesday for free. God is so good.