mmm honestly, my life isn't as interesting as it was in korea. i mean obviously...
but at the same time, i really enjoyed updating my blog when i was there and i don't want it to just suddenly... end. i guess i've grown attached to this blog, as if it was some kinda pet or something. hahaha
anyway, as always, life is tough, but God is still sovereign. money will always be a problem, but i'm learning to remind myself constantly of happenings in korea where God ggpwned me. He will provide. He will deliver. He knows my needs vs. my wants. He is perfect and has a perfect plan for me.
today, kay and i were the only ones that came out to open door (my home church) EV. it was interesting because 1. i never went out to a EV sesh where it was just one other person, and 2. i never EV-ed with a guy before.
not that these things matter at all hahaha just wanted to share.
today's EV sesh was such a challenge for the both of us because we talked to a girl who claimed to be a liberal catholic, but pretty much ended up unintentionally implying that she believes in universalism (the idea that everyone's gods are pretty much the same God.) we asked her what she thinks about the idea of going to heaven and she said people go if they are honest -- not only in their words and thoughts, but deep down in their hearts. "everyone has a good heart. it's just that some have more layers of corruption than others. but i think if they practice HONEST love and HONEST goodness, from the core of their heart past all the corruption and stuff, they'll go." "even a buddhist who lives a good life and stays honest?" "yeah"
kay: where does jesus fit into all of this? who is jesus to you?
angelica: he's just this figure that we look to as an example of how we as human beings should live. jesus instinctively loved and lived a good life without... thinking about it. he just knew how to be a good person without trying.
kay: then how about the cross? what does it mean?
angelica: mmm that he carried our burdens?
and by the time kay and i asked her a bunch of questions about where she stands with the gospel and all that, it was time for her to go to class. i think if i ate before EV, i would've gotten indigestion and barfed up all my food from feeling so dapdaphae.
as we reached geisel's silent tree and debriefed, we were just soooo sad that we ran out of time and that we couldn't get the gospel message across in time. WE WERE SO CLOSE!!
it just sucks how present-day catholicism, which stemmed from apostle peter, the first pope ever (and a legit one, might i add), is corrupted and deviates so much from what really matters -- the gospel. trust me when i say this because i went to an all-girls catholic school since 6th grade, but most catholic homilies (christians' version of a sermon) are all about feel-good take-home messages. "do this and you'll be a good person in life. follow jesus' example of love (not that that's bad or anything) and change the world." stuff like that. it's never focused on the gospel and God's gift of salvation.
bottom line: we all need jesus. the end.
i'm hungry. i for SURE gained weight since being back. it's 1:09 am now and i'm hungry. all i ate today was a measly binch cracker (i posted a picture of this sometime in february) and....
this. 70% off sushi at surfside sushi in pacific beach.
ok so i bought some choco chip ice cream and left it at someone's apt last tuesday. i was excited to pick it up today and it wasn't there. i was told someone took it and ate it all. i'm honestly sad. ice cream isn't just ice cream when you're about to get your rag (i'm being straight up). what to dooooo :(
*update: i forgot that one of the small groups for KCM shoebox left their tub of cookies&cream in our freezer. i ate some. freak.
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