Psych/o: a combining word; pertains to the mind
Thromb/o: also a combining word; means "clot"
-osis: a suffix; means "condition"
.... All of this educational junk just to explain to you that I presently feel as if I.... have it.
I just want to vegetate on my bed and let the "mindclot" melt away in this disgusting heat.
Lately I've been feeling very I-don't-give-a-___ about everything school related. I'm so sick of studying already. Nothing is going through my brain. I tell you -- Psychothrombosis. Or maybe it's because Anatomy drained every ounce of motivation out of me. Whatever it is, I am just ready to travel. Far far away.
This past Sunday, as I was about to head back to Loma Linda from LA, a few church guys asked if I wanted to join them on their spontaneous trek to PHIL'S BBQ. I gasped immediately with excitement, and then remembered I had 2 online quizzes due at 11:59PM that night and class at 9am the next day. Wah wah waaaah. At that moment, my conscience got some major work out. I was battling back and forth between what's right and what's RIGHT. I mean... getting Phil's BBQ is just... RIGHT, you know? It's SO RIGHT. (side note: Last year when I came back from Korea and lived in SD for a quarter, I ate Phil's 12 times in 11 weeks.)
So after a lot of "Should I????"'s, I had to say yes. And even though I felt super bad for having them pick me up in Loma Linda when it's pretty much out of the way, it all worked out. I was able to pick up my Med Term book from my apt and do the online quizzes at my small group "granddaughter" Chloe's apt after dinner. 35 minutes before it was due.
Situation of WIN and WIN. (Can you see the excitement just oozing out of my face?)
Oh, and another WIN because I didn't die in class the next day like I thought I would.
Anyway, next week is finals week, and the stuff that I've been learning the past 4 weeks, although it has been super fun and exciting, also made me feel very doubtful of myself. Will I become a competent OT? Will I be able to interact with my clients in a confident and objective, yet caring way? Will this program really teach me to become more articulate and professional in speech and manner? I want to say yes. Want to, that is.
I'm not motivated to study at all.
There are 2 main types of students:
1. Those who know how much studying they have to get done, so they start ASAP and spread the work out evenly so they don't have to cram and feel like death the night before.
2. Those who know how much studying they have to get done, so they simply just don't think about it. They don't feel the pressure yet because it is a week away. They attempt to convince themselves a week is plenty of time, but deep inside they know they're just trying to make themselves feel better by thinking that way.
Can you tell by how much more I wrote for the latter that I am that type of student? Haha.
Dang, not proud of that........
Time to finish my assignments extra early and start studying for finals!!
Heh..
Not for second have any of us doubted your competency Sarah Ku so don't doubt yourself! This is all part of the learning experience, so learn and do well. :)
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