psych tests

so i don't know where to begin, or even what to talk about
but i guess somehow i end up having some kinda point
that's why these days, i end up making up the title after i write my blog entry haha


psych tests are so BS, but at the same time so interesting because it describes me pretty accurately most of the time.
but then again... the same description could represent someone else pretty accurately, too
so uh... i don't know, man.

so this random lady doing some experiment approached me on the streets of gangnam while i was waiting for tina and grace. she asked me to draw a house, tree, and a person. i thought, "simple. i used to always draw these when i was little." so i drew it in about 3 minutes and this is what she concluded:

1. i'm very outgoing and happy on the outside, but sometimes lonely and anxious and full of worry on the inside
2. i have a lot of greed, but no end product from it (dang translating it into english makes it sound really awkward)

3. i have a lot of love to give, but sometimes i don't know how to express it
4. i'm a closed off person, but i open up to those i trust
5. i have a future goal set, but i'm not pursuing it just yet
6. i often like being by myself

it's so funny. i asked her if i could take a peek at the other drawings and they were mostly all like.. literally house, tree, person. with money drawn on the side. maybe some flowers. 

but yeah, i don't know. some of her interpretations were drawn from BS. "the swirl on the tree means that you have never-ending worries in your life." "the house and the closed door means that there's something going on in your family. and it also means that you're closed off" (but i always draw my doors closed....) (well, i mean... they can be true, but....)

anyway, yeah while talking about my drawing, she started saying how a lot of people in korea have problems with loneliness and that even though they seem really lively and happy on the outside, they're depressed on the inside (korea = 2nd highest suicide rate in the world. they need Jesus. :/) then she went on to say we should hang out and that she'd call me and that she thinks it's fate that we randomly met like this when i'm from america and i'm only here a few months and blah blah blah. no thanks, but at the same time, thanks? i guess i'm pretty up for it. new friend yay

soon enough, tina came and we went upstairs to the restaurant to wait for grace. we watched a "musical" (no singing or talking) called "비보이를 사랑한 발레리나" last night and it was pretty fun. 

they did some psych tests on me, too. for example: 

Q: imagine a cube. it can be any size. how small/big is it?

A: it's REALLY big. 

interpretation -- size of my heart

Q: what is it made out of? 

A: colored glass. maybe green. and it's those where you can't look inside from the outside, but from the inside you can look out. 

interpretation -- i'm pretty closed off, but i'm very interested in getting to know others

Q: ok there's a ladder. where is it in relation to the cube -- is it leaning, next to it, on top of it, etc.? 

A: it's leaning on it 

interpretation -- friends lean on me for support

Q: how many steps are on the ladder?

A: mmm, well it leads to the top of the cube, so maybe around 30?

interpretation -- i have about 30 friends

Q: there's a horse. where is it in relation to the cube?

A: on top. 

interpretation -- the horse is my future spouse. i'm going to let my husband take control. 

but, these tests are so subjective. it depends on who interprets it, you know? 

i don't know. if you know me well enough, you'd know if these tests accurately depicted me or not. what do you think?

i ain't sayin nothin. hehe.